Sunday, December 28, 2003
It's been a long week++ since E came back from his little "sabbatical" and things were no different of course - he was drinking just as much as ever - he wasn't taking his meds - he was getting paranoid, being overly demanding, attempting to be controlling and verbally nasty to me... he was really acting crazy - not remembering things, asking stupid questions 30 times in the space of minutes and just generally driving me crazy.... it just continued on and on - of course each morning when he first woke for about 30 min he was fine - nice, apologetic, rational, etc... but then it all started again.... I had made a decision that he was out of here today - I couldn't handle it anymore and he was just making us all miserable.... The boys' holiday wasn't the best and I hated that.... they were happy but it could have been ALOT better.... He manages to affect them so that they start to cycle thru manic episodes a couple times a day and they are just sooo all over the place as they don't understand it all or they do and don't know how to react... ANYWAY my brother called yesterday and was talking to E - he could hear how nutty and irrational E was beign and he was worried about me and the boys... SOOO he called the MPs and gave them a little summary of things and told them he was worried about me and just wanted to give them a "heads up" in case I needed to call them.... Well about an hr later they showed up.... Listened a bit to Mr. Nutcase, asked a few questions then called EMS to come check him out and transport him to the hospital.... E went willingly - actually wanted to go, he was scaring himself I think w/all his erradick, irrational behavior -- E will NOT be returning to THIS house... I just can't handle it anymore and he knows it!!! The boys and I deserve soooo much better then the crap he was handing us... not to mention he's got no job, he's drinking more then ever and getting nastier each day.... I am not gonna be supporting a lazy drunk for the rest of my life.... The boys and I deserve a life - a life where we can go out and have friends and do fun things instead of being terrorized and held captive by the wild mood swings of a drunk bipolar maniac... Today the boys and I start pulling ourselves together and starting our new life.... I need to contact mom and talk to her about coming up the weekend after New Years for a week while I work nights - guess she will be coming up every other week to help out for a while... And I have to say in the midst of it all this past week I managed to keep the house looking pretty damn good!!! Just have to run to grocery store for a few things today and work on folding/putting away laundry.... well it's off to play with the boys -- they wanna do some crafts and then I want to rest a bit as I have a killer headache from the stress and sinuses... Til next time....
